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My "Going To Be" Wife

2012-01-17T11:08:00.001-08:00

You see...
She was my "going to be" wife
That's what I keep telling myself
I could not go through this life
Without her...
Well that's what I keep telling my life
I loved her like I thought I was supposed to
But it just wasn't enough
She loved "her" more than she could have room to love "I"
So many of her "we" really meant "I"
And after lie upon lie upon lie of her hearts truth love
I realized she did not have room left for me...
So I could not give her what she wanted...
To lie
Between her sheets, her eyes and her legs
Like my puppet I'd finger her to write my name all over the walls
Grip my pillows and scratch it all
But...
...writing fades to distance shadows in the sunlight
After climbing high nightly, she'd drop into the loveless shallow of her heart
Back to the reality that she liked her "hers" over my "us"
Must...
... I had to let go
Wishing the death of my love was the loss of our great connection
The end of the suggestion
my "going to be" wife's..
"We are F O R E V E R"
At least that's what she said to me
But remove my "F R E" dom and it's "O V E R "...
Not something I wanted but something I needed
I could not love her more than she loved herself and my love pleaded
NO MORE... please...
... because
You see...
She was my "going to be" wife
That's what I kept telling myself...
I could not go through this life
Without her...
...Well that's what I kept telling my life...

BRAND NEW SPECTRUM WEBSITE!!

2011-10-25T19:41:00.000-07:00

As many may know (and many may not) we are launching a completely NEW website for Spectrum Cosmetics. On our current site we are limited to the features we can offer and our cart is not very versatile. That is all about to change. We have been working very hard for the last 6 months to be able to offer customers more deals, products, easier access and increased customer service support. A few of the new options/features we are offering are:

** Customer Log-ins (YES, customer log-ins) - customers will have their own profile that will store their information, birthday, shipping/mailing address, past and pending orders and profile discount (if applicable)

** Real-time Shipping - real time processing, shipped and delivered updates on the user profile by order

** Shopping cart coupons and discount codes (finally we have coupon abilities)

** Facebook intergratin - log in to our site with you Facebook ID

** Customer applied discounts - We now have the ability to add discounts to certain customer's profiles ie. VIP customers, MUA's, Wholesalers, etc. *More information will be coming soon on how to apply those discounts to your account

** Reward point program - Customers can accumulate points when making a purchase that can be used towards future purchases

** Affiliate program - Qualifying customers will be able to earn $$ for successfully referring other customers * more information coming soon

** And much much much more!!!

Fruity detox

2011-06-30T18:26:00.000-07:00

Several people have asked me about the fruit detox that I did with my friend Charla. I did the "diet" for 6 days, she is currently still on it. Before I started I was 151lbs and she was 155lbs. I'm currently 139lbs and she is 143lbs.

We were told about this "diet" by a close friend that gave us all the details over the phone. I'm writing them down for you guys so those that want to try it short term and long term can try it. There is a turbo 3 day fruit detox and there is a detox that you can do for up to 12 days straight.

Make sure the fruit is FRESH (organic is better)
Fruits should not be preserved, dried, canned or frozen. No Jamba juice, fast fruit smoothies or dried fruit.

3 day fruit detox
Start no later than an hour after you wake up.
Eat as much fruit as you want, instead of bananas because of the build up of potassium.
Eat every 2 hours until 3 hours before your bed time. Once you've established the times that you eat make sure it stays the exact same for the rest of the diet.
Example. If you eat at 8:35am make sure you eat at 12:35pm, 2:35pm, 4:45pm etc

You can also replace of your "meals" at night with Dieter's Green Tea (no sugar and drink it on a empty stomach) the tea will further help flush your body of toxins. When you drink the tea, you may want to make sure you stay close to a restroom

Fruit Detox Diet
Start no later than an hour after you wake up.
The first day of the diet involves drinking a 6-oz. sugar-free protein shake every two hours.
Dinner is a salad made of leafy-green vegetables and topped with lean chicken or fish and a lemon juice/olive oil dressing. avoid adding starchy vegetables, such as potatoes, into the salad.
On the second and third days, etc the protein shakes are replaced with a serving of fresh fruit.
Eat as much fruit as you want, instead of bananas because of the build up of potassium.
Eat every 2 hours until 3 hours before your bed time. Once you've established the times that you eat make sure it stays the exact same for the rest of the diet.
Example. If you eat at 8:35am make sure you eat at 12:35pm, 2:35pm, 4:45pm, etc.

You can also replace of your "meals" at night with Dieter's Green Tea (no sugar and drink it on a empty stomach) the tea will further help flush your body of toxins. When you drink the tea, you may want to make sure you stay close to a restroom.

If you try the diet, post on how it's going and/or how much you lost or tweet me @accidentaldiva.

The Truth

2010-09-11T12:05:00.000-07:00

::If She ever left me I wouldn't even be sad no

Cause there's a blessin' in every lesson
And I'm glad that I knew hER at all::

You helped define my future

Knowing that everything I want IS possible

I was very doubtful and will admit I've settled

Thinking I would never get everything I wanted and need in ONE person

But because of you, I know it IS possible

The intelligence, the beauty, the sensuality, the strength

My brain has never been so stimulated

My body has never been so dominated

Even though you were never really mine

Your preview to my future featured film belonged to me

.. Thank you ..

Her Strength

2010-09-11T12:02:00.000-07:00

Today, August 25 many woke up remember that a very talented singer named Aaliyah passed tragically... but today will be remember by many of us by the loss a very insiprational, warm hearted and leader in the LGBT community, Mr. Durand Robinson.

I had only met him two or three times while visiting his club but I remember his smile. I still remember how people around him looked and admired him and just wanted to say hi or take a picture with him.

Like I said, I didn't know him well but I do know his daughter and the princess of the legecy of Traxxx well and I truly admire her strenghten. I am not a very emotional person, but when I heard of his passing all I thought about was how she must be feeling. How her heart must be hurting from the loss of her only and dear father.

I admit.. I cried.. a lot... I cried for my friend.. I cried for her loss and I cried for the loss of a positive influence that our LGBT community...

We all lost that day... and we will never forget him

R.I.P. Mr. Durand Robinson

Jump Off Appreciation

2010-09-10T21:43:00.000-07:00

**Inspired by Twitter Trending topic & Real Life**

"She want a nukka with no worries, no girlies, no lies and no stories.. Well I'm sorry, she ain't looking for me.."
Lil Wayne

..

I just want to thank you for being there when she isn't

You know that you will never be the one because I already found her and you are okay with that fact

I don't have to remember your birthday, last name, and we don't have an anniversary

I never have to worry about you going through my phone or reading text message because you play your position

Thank you for keeping your mouth shut when you know I'm on the phone with her

And when I call you by her name during sex, I don't have to worry about you going off..

You've never tried to kiss me in the mouth.. girl, thank you

Leaving out of my back door so that my kids don't ever see you, because honestly I don't know how long I'm going to keep you around

You don't except a call back when you leave me a voicemail and are happy just to hear from me, even if I call you 3 days later

I love the way you get up in the middle of the night and just leave without me having to come up with an excuse on why you can't stay

You're awesome!

You know are NOT Mrs. Right BUT I will fuck you til she comes...

The Representative

2010-08-21T22:41:00.000-07:00

MissCin: Doesn't it always seem like when you first meet someone.. you aren't meeting them.. you are actually meeting their representative?"

Me: *nodds* Yea...its like a sales pitch huh? Or even an interview..

I walked passed the lot on my way to work and stopped to look in at an attractive display that caught my eye..

The Representative walked up to me with a perfect Crest smile and deep dimples and said "Is there anything I can help you with?"

I wanted to say I was just looking and walk off but the display was quite appealing... "Ummm... can you tell me about this model?"

The Representative stepped back a little, winked and said "Well, tell me what you are looking for Miss and I'm sure I will be able to help you with something..."

So I thought to myself.. *shurgz* why not ..."Well I'm interested in a woman with ambition, someone I can build an dynasty with... good work ethic and great at money managing. Oh and of course attractive... loyal.. appreciative, mmm... she has to be a little cocky... hmm a little dominate but respectful with it... and amazing at a good mindfuk"

The Representative tilted her head and smiled and said "You're in luck, I have exactly what you are looking for plus more... She is a hardworking, very ambitious, loyal, honest, cocky, a beast in the bedroom, bilingual, attentive, comes with a full tank of act-right, hasn't been owned in over a year and she is fully versed in the art of mindfuking"

I thought to myself, looked the relationship model up and down, walked around her a little and even if her shoes were clean.. and even though the deal seemed to good to be true I simply said "I'll take her."

I took my newly found treasure, folded up my receipt and put it in my wallet..

I have to admit enjoyed the ride.. and it was smooth at first... I did enjoy her.. and I tried for the most part.. but in the end it seemed everything seems just keep breaking down... the loyalty was sticky, only worked sometimes.. her cocky was turn up way too high and always needed an adjustment and the ego well.. it was always acting up.. but the biggest issue was that I couldnt like keep her tank full of act right for nothing! It was ALWAYS running low.. I mean.. how many months was I supposed to get on that full tank anyway?!

But you know... unfortunately I did not read my receipt completely... with my purchase I forgot to go over the fine print .. and of course the representative didn't remind me...

As I thought over my return of the relationship model and all of the emotions wasted on her.. I decided to look over the fine print in the receipt.. and not to my surprise it read...

For the first 30 days the Representative may twist, stretch or bend the truth to get a "sell". The misrepresentation of the relationship model is the job of the Representative and it is the buyers responsibility to recognize it as bullshit. The relationship model is not guaranteed to last through the interview process. Model may have been used, abused, harbor negative emotions, have trust issues and/or the heart may still belong to another. It is not guaranteed that anything the representative said is actually truth.

All emotions and time spent is Final.

In other words...Buyer Beware

*shurgz*

I kinda had to laugh to myself... I knew better ...

*sighz*

Moral: Never trust the Representative...

Bilingual

2010-07-13T22:25:00.000-07:00

I paint her name on my bedroom walls

She lives in my lap.. and my ear ... and on my lips

I happily drowned in her locs

Savored her words against my neck

The beauty of Spanish travel into my chest

"¡ay, coño!"

Conveyance moistened my warmth

Her influence runs down my thigh

My tongue takes her on a road never traveled by

first... last... only...

Muffled moans stroke the tingle in my spine

Eyes tighten as the words stop

They say nothing last forever

But THIS moment...

She took me where some only live 30 seconds

But with her I live there forever

The last that wants first

2010-06-25T15:40:00.000-07:00

{A letter from the Ms. Last to Ms. Next]

*In the point of view of Ms. Last.. for the slow people... obviously I'm Ms. Next*

Dear Ms. Next,

I know I shouldn't be mad at you but I am. I really can't help myself. But you need to know, you wouldn't be here if it wasn't for us breaking up. I had her first, remember that. She was in my life for years and she's still mine. I can still push her buttons and make her lips turn red.. you know that deep deep pink from angrier. Yea, I still got it. She reacts to me this way because she still loves me, right? Well either way.. I still have that power over her.. I pull at heart string for the hell of it because .. well because I can. I know that I can never be the woman she really wants but I don't want anyone else to have her. I was down for her when she went through all her problems and that should be worth something, right? I brought her into my life, shared my children and I showed her family. Just because we broke up doesn't mean you can now be the one that puts a smile on her face. Why should you get her now, when her life is going well... I was there in the good times and in the bad. But she doesn't see that, but I will make her. I hate that she is interested in you! How dare you be different... And I know what you are thinking but so what, I see other people... tell them I'm over her.. lie to her about them... tell them I do want them instead of her, and cuddle with them at night... I still think of her when its convenient. And girl, I know its wrong to lie on you but I have to keep her all for me, you see. I know you can't really understand.. but if that means that I have to turn her against you with my lies so that she can stay just within arms reach, I will be selfish and do that... I'm just not ready to let her go.

I will admit you intimidate me but since I'm the ex-girlfriend I know I have to intimidate you too. We both know she will always take my side, even if I'm wrong. Stand up for me to you, and ignore my short comings... I have the power to convince her that you are the one that is the liar even though the truth is on the tip of my tongue, that its really me. I just wanted you to know, I will not be going away anytime soon... she owes me her life... how dare she be happy without me... how dare she be with you and enjoy her life... she should still want to be with me! I demand and I want all her attention for me.. even though I still want to run the streets and see whoever I please, she is still my option. And it doesn't matter if she's moved on, I will do what I can to bring her back.... Not to keep her, just to play with her... I'm not done with her yet, Ms. Next... And until I am, I will always be a problem for you. So don't be mad at her, be mad at me, because I am the last that should come in first.

Sincerely,

Her Ex-Girlfriend, Ms. Last

Tie me up and Lace me!

2010-06-12T22:16:00.000-07:00

Grab my laces and pull me tighter

Until I can no longer exhale

Under the strong whale bone cage and delicate lace

Black, powerful, desired, strong

I am suffocating but I will not show

Breasts pushed up and throbbing from your tight hold

My body pumping with pleasurable pain

Flushed and barely able to breathe, I love you

Pull harder!

Grip my waist, harder

Tighter

Make me a goddess

Transform me,

Pull me to my limit

Start my rebirth, pull me through

With beauty comes pain

Cold metal and bone digging in my skin

Sustain my ageless body

I will never grow old

I'm Too Cool For You

2010-06-04T19:01:00.000-07:00

:whisper:

'Take off your cool... I wanna see you..'

Baby..

.. don't be like that...

you know that I'm just naturally too cool for this... I told you they call me Ice Cold.. Its not that I don't want to let you in but you will have to use a ice pick as a key to my heart

I can't say I'm like Omarion and I don't have a ice box but more like a glacier were my heart used to be..

I'm just to cool to tell you "I like you" but you should know that.. I mean.. you do know that right

My ego won't allow me to tell you that I smile when I think of you ...

I feel cool water drip down my ribs when I see your dimples but you know.. I feel it melting... I .. well... I mean... you aiight...

...you should know.. I mean... you should see... that you might be The ONE.. I'm just too cool to tell you.. You understand right...

right...

WELCOME HOME ERIKA!!

2010-03-05T17:15:00.001-08:00

Every since I saw you in the mall in '08 you have always been able to caught my eye...

I've been waiting so long for you, and now your mine...

I LOVE YOU ERIKA!!

WELCOME HOME!

{LOL}

StrangHer

2010-02-20T01:56:00.000-08:00

“If I never met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you, I wouldn't love you. If I didn't love you, I wouldn't miss you. But I did, I do, and I will.”

Dear You,

I wonder where you are but I don't know if your really there..

It's like hearing the wind against my window but it's more like against my heart

I feel like I've been looking for you my whole life...maybe you just gave up on me

I know Ive been distracted by a few others

but Ive never really stopped waiting for you

Are you hiding? Are you lost.... or afraid?

Hmm maybe I'm the one that's lost...

Do you really exist?

Are you really out there? or are you one of those dreams that feels real?..

Why haven't you found me yet, girl?

I know if you are truly mine, you know where to look

No clubs or bars, you know me better than that..

I know I've checked every book store in town for you, I think I saw your shadow once..

Heard you reading out loud to yourself..

I listen to Floetry to remember you

And I even checked to see if your were lost between Common's words

I feel you out there, I feel like I'm half of me sometimes

Even though I have never met you Soul Mate, I know you are looking for me too

Maybe I'm the one that's lost

So if you find me first..

You know, between isles at Borders or maybe the Apple store

Give me a sign, so I know it's you

Say something that will make me smile, you know you can

After all this time, I would hate to pass you up, like a StrangHer

Let them eat cake

2010-01-15T14:33:00.000-08:00

I'm a little late on this post but whatever lol

I made a fondant cake for the first time... it look me and my mom like 5 hours but I think we did pretty great!

... its not a hat... its just on an upside down plate lol

Eras(her)

2009-12-19T10:11:00.000-08:00

Loyalty -noun- the state or quality of being loyal; faithfulness to commitments or obligations

Sometimes I think Im a slow learner... even though obviously I'm not, it seems that somethings I just don't caught on to.

I took 40 minutes out yesterday to delete all the pseudo-friends I have kept in my life. I deleted about 70 people surprisingly. Home numbers, cell numbers, addressed, emails... all gone. And I don't answer number I don't know... and I won't...

I realized through a very small selfish event by someone I would have called a very very close friend, that I have made a huge mistake keeping a lot of people close to me that I really shouldn't. When I'm hurt and frustrated because these people that I care so much for and I would anything for show me over and over and over again they really don't care about me, do they know it? NOPE. When I have sleepiness nights and cry because no one is there for me like I am there for them, do they even know? NOPE... So why keep them in my life? ... see I told you I was a little slow when it comes to this.... Unfortuatly I've been doing this shit for years....

I had a "friend" that I would do ANYTHING for and time and time she has failed me. She has never really been there for me when I am honest without myself and think about it. Its always been about her... Its actually kinda of sad... I would and have done anything she asked of me but I have never had that loyalty returned.

I had a "friend" who pretty much stole from me and smiles in my face about it. I let her borrow $200 and have yet to be paid back. But swears up and down she has ever intention of paying me back...while she goes to clubs, parties, Las Vegas etc getting tattoos and piercings but hasn't even handed me $20 toward my money back. But I took her phone calls and texts...

And wow... I have an ex.. who was a "friend" who has not gotten over me and uses everything she can as an excuse to stay in my life. When she's sick she calls me, when she's in the hospital she calls me... even uses my children as an excuse... but I can't even let her have my cellphone number because she can't help herself texting and calling harassing me about why we can't be together... well this one I can't say I was slow about because well... thats why she doesn't have my number...

I know its cliche to say you're going to make changes for the New Year but this is something I need to do. I refuse to allow people in my life that don't give back the love, friendship, devotion and loyalty that I have given them. It seriously bothers me that I have allowed myself to be taken advantage of for all these years just to keep the people that I loved close to me and blindly believing they loved me too...

And no... I didn't do this as a silent tantrum to get the attention of those that know they have wronged me or even the ones that don't think they did... I did this for me... I will not fuss and argue with those that I realized that haven't been there for me... whats the point? Nothing will change. These are people that I should have let go years ago and I just didn't... honestly its more my fault than theirs...

I've probably said this phase a thousand times this year but I think I have never meant it so strongly as I do today... "I'm done..."

My Se7en

2009-12-16T14:29:00.000-08:00

So...

Almost a year ago I wrote about the Seven Deadly Sins and how two of them apply to me...

See... Se7en

Anyway... I have become very committed to my "sins" and have displayed them for all the world to see the best way I knew how.. TATTOO!

Wow.. 72 years!

2009-12-12T11:20:00.000-08:00

The First Black Disney Princess!

It took 72 years from the first Disney movie involving a princess to have a African American Princess BUT it was well worth the wait!

The movie opened December 11, 2009 and I took my daughter and my son to see it. It was packed and I had to end up purchasing tickets online because the first 5 shows were sold out. After we got into the theater there I noticed there were a lot of parent with kids... but there was also grown women alone or in groups waiting to see the movie.

The movie started and I will admit to you (but don't tell anyone) I fell in love with Tiana! I was afraid that there would be ridiculous stereotypes and by the end of the movie I would be disappointed that I even came but it was completely the opposite!!

She is so adorable with her little dimples and modest personality. She was raised with a family with both hardworking parents and was taught to work HARD for all the things she wants in life. But the best part was when I looked over at my daughters face and her eyes were lite up and she had a HUGE smile on her face. She was in love with Tiana too!

If you havent seen The Princess and The Frog, what are you waiting for?

The art and creativity in this movie was the best of Disney quality and you will fall in love with it just like everyone fell for The Lion King!

Listed²

2009-12-11T15:47:00.000-08:00

tis the season to start listing...again...

Whizz through the magic of the Enchanted Microcosmos with Erika, the little fairy who smiles and glitters in multi-coloured crystal. Her wings display pink to fuchsia-coloured crystals set in Pointiage®. The inner side displays lilac epoxy.

Article no.: 1024554
Size: 27 9/16 / 1 x 1 3/8 inch
Price: $260.00
www.swarovski.com/

Heartless Dress

From the video by Kanye West... ever since I saw the dress in the video I've wanted it...
Price: Unknown

EasyTone Inspire

Using built-in balance pods to create instability, the EasyTone Go Outside encourages toning in 3 key areas of the leg: the hamstrings, gluteus maximum, and calves.
The slight instability created by the balance pods forces your muscles to work a little harder, toning your leg muscles while you walk.
EasyTone increases muscle activation up to 28% more in your gluteus maximus, 11% in your hamstrings, and 11% in your calves.
Price: $98.98
www.reebok.com

Amazon Gift Card

... I mean what CAN'T you buy on Amazon.com??
Price: $50
www.amazon.com

VW CC

Chrome grille slats
Halogen reflector lens fog lights
Frameless windows and doors
Electronic Stabilization Program (ESP^®)
Exterior Signal Mirrors
Tire Pressure Monitoring System (TPMS)

Nappa leather seating surfaces with Vavona Wood interior trim
Heatable front seats
12-way power seat
Four passenger sport seating

Price: $ 32,900

..

..A Diva can dream... can't I...

"Diva" - Beyonce

Through "Our" Eyes

2009-12-10T15:21:00.000-08:00

From the author of A Clockwork Orange, Anthony Burgess created a world unlike we have ever seen. It seems simple but no one has ever inked on paper.

Due to overpopulation the world is faced with a world starvation, burden soil, and a land without enemies...where official family limitation glorifies homosexuality.. where promotions where handed to the "most gay" of the employees...

I enjoyed this novel so much that I read it twice and referred it to a few of my friends that also enjoyed the read.

Check it out ---> http://tinyurl.com/wantingseed

Damaged Fruit

2009-12-10T15:08:00.000-08:00

"We are who we choose to be...I’m responsible for me" - Floetry

Choosing a partner is like shopping at the grocery for fruit. Everyone wants the perfectly ripe, pretty skinned pickin' with no bruises or soft spots and a very sweet inside.

Some of us spend a while looking over the fruit on display, picking it up... smelling it... looking for unwanted bruises until we find exactly what we think we want.

Some of us pick at random and hope for the best. I was one of those people that tried and balance the good with the bad. I may pick up a nice juicy peach thats ripe and looks soooo sweet but it may have a bruise or two.. but I figured if its that bad I'll eat around it and throw the bad part away. I figured I was getting more sweet juiciness than bruised and damaged so I still win... right???

With a person, you cant just eat around the bad part like you can a piece of fruit and throw it away... it will never go away. When you meet someone that has been damaged by the past regardless of if its relationships, childhood, trama, etc. it will ALWAYS be a part of that person.

I loved once... regardless of her faults or failures I loved her... but she was damaged.

I wanted so bad to be the things that had been missing in her life and show her everything that I was but she was damaged. I shared by life, love and family with her but she was damaged. No matter how far I thought we got, nothing mattered because she was so damaged. Damaged by family, lust, love & life... and honestly I cant blame all of this on her.. I did know what I was dealing with and I still tried to eat around the bruises and the soft spots but at the end I couldn't throw the rest away... once all the sweet juicy ripe flesh was gone all I was left with was the pieces no one wanted.. including her ... there was no fixing what was already damaged... and left with nothing more than that it started to slowly damage me... You know "they" say "One spoiled Apple spoils the bunch"..

I should have taking in all of her... the good and the bad but we both left some of the bad out... through lack of communication, acceptance and loyalty, we failed to do what I intended... take the good with the bad... and all we were left with in the end was damaged fruit....

My Spectrum Tweet Contest

2009-09-21T09:40:00.001-07:00

I decided to run two contests for my new cosmetic line Spectrum Cosmetics (sp3ctrum.com) on Twitter.com. I'm using the contest to raise awareness for Spectrum Cosmetics and our main cause Autism Spectrum Disorder. I'm giving away 2 $500 Spectrum Cosmetics Gift Certificates.

Here are the rules:

Contest #1 Win $500 Gift Certificate to Spectrum Cosmetics (sp3ctrum.com)
Tweet #sp3ctrum
1. You must follow Spectrum Cosmetics @Sp3ctrumDotCom
2. Tweet our tag #sp3ctrum to enter
3. Contest ends December 31st.
4. Winner will be announced January 10, 2010

Contest #2 5,000th Follower Win $500 Gift Certificate to Spectrum Cosmetics (sp3ctrum.com)
1. You must follow Spectrum Cosmetics @Sp3ctrumDotCom
2. Account must be activate at the time of announcement
3. NO SPAM or Fake accounts will be accepted
4. If 5,000 followers are not reached by December 31st, the contest in void

And yes, it is possible (yet unlikely) for one Tweet to win both!

Good Luck!

If you have any question, please contact us at info@sp3ctrum.com

Lines of her palm

2009-08-26T13:13:00.000-07:00

If I could reach up and hold a star for every time you've made me smile, the entire evening sky would be in the palm of my hand.

I know, I know... (2)

2009-08-17T14:20:00.000-07:00

I said I would blog more but I've been so busy. When I started Spectrum Cosmetics I didn't realize that it was be as popular as it is so fast. And honestly, its just me. I design the colors. I come up with the names, I built the website, I do the advertisments.. etc etc.. so bare with me please... I'm going to try to write more often.. I promise :)

Smile Jars - Bad Business

2009-07-18T21:57:00.000-07:00

I had the worst business experience I have ever had with Smile Jars. If you are in the cosmetic business or you buy empty cosmetic jar DO NOT order from Smile Jar (http://www.smilejars.com) OR Smile World Inc. (smileworld.com). They have the WORST customer service I've ever experienced. NEVER EVER EVER EVER do business with SMILE JARS! You WILL regret it!

I ordered a speciality cosmetic jar from Smile Jars website. The jar stated the minimum order was 250, so I ordered this style jar along with 2 other style jars. I saw the on another site but they wanted an order of 20,000 and I really don't need that much. I ordered, was billed and received the invoice for the order on June 24, 2009. On June 29, 2009 I contacted the company on the status of my order and was informed to go to their website for my order status. I checked my order status and the order stated that it was shipped... So of course I thought everything was great... too bad I was wrong

On July 6, 2009 after not receiving my order I contacted Smile Jars again and was informed that my order was shipped. I asked for more details because I was have not received the order & I was not sent a tracking number. I was transferred to Heather Song who informed me that there was a website error and the minimum order for that style should have been 5000 not 250. How can you have a website error and NOT contact the customer??! I asked why haven't I been sent the other jars or why it says SHIPPED on their website and she stated it was another error on her company's part. I informed Heather Song that was their error and I paid for what was advertised and I would like my order to be sent to me. If you can't provide what you advertise, than don't advertise it! So after arguing with Heather Song for over an hour because of her horrible customer service skills I told her I would just pick other jars and to send them to me ASAP because I've been waiting for over 2 weeks. So I process a replacement order with the credit for the other jars and waited for the jars to be delivered the next day.

I thought the nightmare was over and I just decided after this I would never deal with this company again. But I was sooooo wrong. They had more than website and poor customer service issues. They shipped my order UPS but before it was delivered to me, it was intercepted by UPS security!!! I could not believe it! UPS held my package (and is actually still holding it!) because of an issue they could not tell me about because I was not the shipper... it took 2 days just to find that out! 20 calls and 7 emails later I found out that Smile Jars even had problems SHIPPING. UPS would not tell me why they intercepted the package but they did tell me the issue was directly related to Smile Jars. I was pissed at this point and asked for my $ back... after 2 weeks they NEEDED to give me money and extra $ for dealing with the all this drama. So pretty much... I'm still waiting for my money.

There is really nothing much more I can do. I filed a report with the Better Business Bureau and I'm waiting to hear back. I just hope this blog saves someone or a someone that is buying for a company the frustration of dealing with this unreliable, unprofessional sorry excuse for a company.

Anti-Relationship

2009-06-03T08:34:00.000-07:00

So... I know I have been gone for a while... I've been busy working and trying to stay on top. Its been time consuming but I will write more...

So... why is it that every woman I run into "isn't ready for a relationship" but they are like 29+. I feel like I'm in the Twilight Zone. Its extremely stupid to me that you don't want to be in a relationship BUT you want to kick it, sleep together, go through my text messages, ask me where I'm at, who I'm with, why I'm there etc... I don't know... maybe I'm the one thats trippin.. I just don't want to be that old ass bitch in the club 45 years old single and hitting on all the young girls... smh... I DON'T want to grow up and be jus.. like... her...

... & the month ends...

2009-05-02T00:54:00.001-07:00

April was Autism Awareness Month and I wanted to leave this month with some food for thought.... I woke up this morning to a newscast reporting that there are 1,200 known cases of the Swine Flu worldwide. I've noticed that facebook, twitter and myspace is going wild with peoples comments about how scary the Swine Flu is becoming. It is frightening... this is something that we would definitely be aware and concerned about, especially how it effects our children. But... what if the Swine Flu effected over 67 MILLION individuals worldwide (about 1% of the worlds population)... how would people reach then? Would there be mass hysteria? What if more individuals were effected by the Swine Flu than paediatric cancer, diabetes and AIDS combined?! Would people refuse to leave their homes?! What if, it had no cause AND no cure?!

Well... those facts aren't about the Swine Flu BUT they are about individuals effected by Autism! More than 1 in 90 children are diagnosis with Autism. It is a hidden worldwide epidemic. Autism is a brain development disorder characterized by impaired social interaction and communication, and by restricted and repetitive behavior. So many of these children are misunderstood, mocked and most times, misdiagnosed. And... One in 90 of those children is my son 8 year old son Alijah. At 2 1/2 years old my son didn't talk in complete sentences, lined everything up he could get his hands on and didn't even call me Mom. I was a very young girl and didn't know too much about babies let alone what Autism was. I was lucky enough to have a great hospital that pointed me in the right direction. My son was diagnosed at 3 and we were blessed enough to receive speak therapy, specialized education and behavioral services. My son is 8 years old and he is healthy functional child who the doctors diagnosis as "high functioning" He will be able to live on his own, have his own family and have a career one day.

But we were lucky... there are thousands of families that don't know about services available or know how to find the information that can help their children and their families. There are thousand of people that don't know what Autism really is, how its effecting our children and why awareness is so important. Education is key when it comes to this disorder. There are several websites that specialize in Autism education and awareness. If you can Google Lil Wayne's latest lyrics, you can Google Autism. Take 30 seconds our of your day and learn important about a disorder that statistically will effect you directly, someone you love and/or someone you work with. The information is out there. Please be aware of it.

I know, I know...

2009-04-15T16:05:00.001-07:00

I have been silent for a while but I have a good excuse... there was A LOT going on.

* Built and launched the Spectrum website

* I got the flu and was floored for a week and a half

* Started an April Promotion for Spectrum Cosmetics. Customers can order up to five samples of my pigments for FREE

* Insomnia started again...

* My 28th birthday came (April 7th) YAY :)

* Hosted my first cosmetic party :) Yay.. it went great!

* My wisdom teeth started coming it... I know.. Im way to old for this... wisdom teeth at 28... INSANE RIGHT?!

... and now I'm here :) I'll try to keep up my blogs, I know Ive been slipping...

Spectrum

2009-03-04T13:34:00.000-08:00

I know I've been on hiatus.... I was sick for a couple weeks and very very tired. But I'm back :) As you may know I am coming out with a full color photography book from Skittle Project. (we are accepting model application) I am also launching a cosmetic line :) It should be ready at the end of this month.

I'm starting with eyeshadows, pigments and lip gloss. ..... I'm soooooo excited!!!

"Hot Thang" - Prince

Hello Kitty!

2009-02-11T11:30:00.000-08:00

I LOVE IT!!! This is the first time they have ever made a 4 min video with any kind of product launch. It is sooooo sexy; make-up, fashion and pop culture smash together in a cloud of pink lace and black pleather...

P.S. MAC Hello Kitty accessories have been added wish list for my birthday :)

If you want something done right...

2009-01-25T22:13:00.000-08:00

My emotions went from heart broken to self-mended in less that 48 hours...

enlightening...

I realized today that one of my major flaws is that I am too loyal and trusting.. those characteristics people always want in a friend or a lover but they are the most unappreciated of them all...

I believe deeply in that belief that people are good and if you give all the things that you want in life, friendship and relationship they will be returned... I know... Golden Rule cliche...

anyway... long story short and even shorter... my day started off despondent... I cried until my cheeks were burning from the salty water and my eyes were crimson like I hadn't slept in 90 hours...

Heartbreak is not just something Kanye shamelessly markets... Heartbreak is bigger and fuller than what can fit on a 3:12 min song...

Fast forwarding because I honestly don't want to dwell on the pain... ... >> so my mother made red velvet cupcakes with my daughter :) I went to the Arden with my brother and his Kappa brother Trey, just to get out the house... and my Sin Twin met us up there :)

I got a cinnabun and I bought the pendant from Swarovski that I wanted for Christmas (on my blog "LISTED") ... and it ended up to be an okay day...

I realized that people are not going to return what you give... regardless how much you really want them to, or you believe that they will... some people will not appreciate you not matter what you do... No matter how loyal you are... No matter how "down" you are for them... sometimes... it just isn't meant to be... so that saying "It's not you, its me" ... isn't always cliche...

So... .. yea.. it really WAS you ... not me ....

Reason #8

2009-01-14T15:54:00.000-08:00

It's so crazy because I was just talking to Legend about this same issue... and then I talked to My ST last night about it... I'm talking about "Don't Ask, Don't Tell" ... I guess I never understood the whole policy and I was just curious about it so I started talking about what it really was and what it meant...

Reason #8 Why I Heart Obama...

I got a link from Legend today about a statement released by Obama's spokesperson. Obama will end the 15-year-old "don't ask, don't tell" policy that has prevented homosexual and bisexual men and women from serving openly within the U.S. military...
its so sexy... I can't stand it...

For those that don't know what "Don't Ask, Don't Tell" is may be a little confused right now. Basically, while Clinton was in office there was a lot of hate crimes and "witch hunts" that effected accused homosexuals in the military. Clinton wanted it to be a more tolerate system...

well... it didn't really work out like that... Collin Powell (who had been a soldier for most of his life) was put on the job to make it acceptable for gays to be in the military so how, some way... However, Powell had a very very very hard time finding anyone that was interviewed to agree that it was okay to be gay in the military... not one person... but he did find that people stated if they didn't know the other person was gay, they wouldn't mind and would be okay with it... so after a year or so of research they came up with the "Don't Ask, Don't Tell" policy.

Today, you are no longer asked or questioned about your sexual orientation BUT if you are openly homosexual or have a domestic partner or anything that can be investigated you will be discharged... so a lot of people including me, feel that it is still discrimination.

Common Moment

2009-01-07T21:22:00.000-08:00

I know I'm not the only one that has those moments... You may have a Jill Scott moment... or a Mary J Blige moment or even.. a Wu Tang moment...

..well after the last month or so... I'm having a Common moment...

"We made love and then laughter, and any way I wanted
I could have her"
- Go!

"The scent of a room that reminds me of you
A hint of perfume it reminds me of you
Take a look at the moon it reminds me of you
Hope the stars and the gods align me and you"
- I Want You

"I feel like its home when I'm in between ya thighs
It's the joy, and the pain, and the bites and the brain
What make it feel so good
That type of stuff u cant explain
I do what I do to do to make it rain"
- Punch Drunk Love

"Punch Drunk Love" - Common

... Good Morning

2009-01-02T13:11:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!

..

... so my New Year Eve started off VERY frustrating.... more like irritating... but thanks to Noelle and some compromising ... it ended well... I met some cool new people and had a great count down :)

It going to be a GREAT year!

The count down has started to HISTORY. 18 more days!!! Peace, Love and Obama!!

Me and my Sin Twin

..yes... there was a club back drop lol

had to do the club pose lol

..good times...

she had to show the boys how it was REALLY done...

... Good Morning... 01/01

"See... your hat does fit me"

I don't think anyone else has had this much fun with 35¢

"Good Morning" - John Legend

Save Me?

2008-12-26T23:40:00.000-08:00

..excuse the commerical ..couldn't find it on youtube..

Gnarls Barkley - New Music - More Music Videos

... who's going to save my soul now....

Stop The Music

2008-12-15T14:09:00.000-08:00

... Okay ...umm so after laughing at myself for the last week .. I glad that I can laugh at someone else today... I got my 7 giggles off!!

..who ever told Kanye to sing should be fired! && beat up in the parking lot! ... No for real... this is bad... ... I don't think I was not the only one Punk'd this week...

you know... if I look close... I think I see Ashton..... hmmm...

Update:: ...So I guess Kanye didn't like being laughed at so much... they pulled all the videos off YouTube and AOL video... spoiled sport!!! ... If you saw it... you still have memories to laugh at... I still giggle to myself every now and then...

I've been PUNK'D

2008-12-12T16:48:00.000-08:00

... so its ironic that I'm writing about this just 4 days after I wrote my letter to my haters...smh... well believe me... what you will read below, you will not believe... I hardly believe it happened... I feel like I've been PUNK'D... I've been waiting for Ashton and the camera crew all day!...smh

..oh and if you don't have a lot of time.. read it later because this WILL be long!

Okay so let me start with giving you the characters first, it will probably be easier to understand... Because this is a VERY confusing story.

..So about 2 months ago after I broke up with my ex of a year and 1/2... very hard break up... my good friend Xenie introduced me to her friend Tasha.

NaTasha Lynn Robinson

My friend Xenie had known Tasha for a year and over the last year I remember seeing comments from Tasha on Xenie's Myspace now and then.

Long story short I started talking to Tasha on the AIM and then eventually on the phone everyday. We had a good vibe and she had great conversation. She was very smart, obviously very attractive and sweet and affection ... damn near perfect.. While talking to her and sharing life stories and random small talk I learned of some friends and family

From left to right: Her daughter Amaya, Amaya's Mother Priscilla, Tasha's cousin Reesee, her friend and co-worker Traci and her Ex-Girlfriend but still friend Gabby

So over the next couple of weeks Tasha and I got very close. If we weren't on the phone we were texting each other. She even asked me to make a background for her myspace of me....

So we decided it was time to meet. I started talking to her cousin Reese who lived in Phoenix, AZ every now and then and saying hi to Amaya anytime I heard her little voice. So she booked a ticket for December 7th to December 14th. But before that day come weird things started happening...

First Tasha's friend Traci gets into it with her husband... I was told the husband was jealous of Traci and Tasha's relationship and came home drunk and beat Traci up...

{White bubbles are Tasha's text messages, Green are my replies}

So I was told Traci would be staying at Tasha's house until see works it out with her husband. Nothing more changed, continued to talk to her everyday and I even talked to Amaya a couple of times... so the day before Tasha's flight I don't hear from her for a couple hours... which wasn't normal because I talked to her every hour on the hour or at least got a text... so the next thing that happens was I got a text message from Traci on Tasha's phone...

So at this point I'm freaked out... I had no idea she had epilepsy and I was so afraid that she wouldn't be okay... it was the longest night I've had in a long time... the next morning I finally heard from Tasha. I was soooooo relieved...

...so everything seemed to calm down. She was taking her medication and was feeling better. And INSISTED on still flying out to CA for a visit. Knowing after the talking to her for this long, it was impossible to argue with her... so she said that she was going to get on the next flight at 7:45am in the morning and land in Sacramento at around 11:40am. So ..... 11:40 came and went... then 1pm...2pm...3pm...4pm....5pm and I started to worry. Every bad thought of her having a seizure somewhere or passing out in the airport and let me tell you... I was freaking out... so around 7pm her cousin Reese calls me and asked if Tasha was with me because she had been texting and called her and she wasn't replying.

Now I wasn't panicked alone, Reesee and I started looking for where Tasha could be... we called SouthWest to try and see if she boarded the plane... paged her in the airports, called all the hospitals in Sacramento and could not find her... I was in PIECES! ...so I was laying in my bed wide awake with no chance of sleeping, all I could do is think about what could have happened to her. As I laid there and wondered I got a text message...

...OMG was I losing it... I felt so responsible... she got into a car accident on her way to the airport to see me! OMG! I was losing my mind and I felt horrible!! So the next day I'm cleaning my house trying to keep my mind off Tasha being in the hospital. So while I was keeping my mind busy the phone rings... its Tasha! She sounded so tired and beat up... She said she was really soar and wanted to see me. She didn't want to be in the hospital by herself because all her family were in Chicago and she was all alone. She pleaded with me to come be with her in the hospital. Feeling a little responsble for her accident, I tell her I'm going to come. I called and talked to Reese, who said she was going to drive down and meet me in San Antonio and we would go to the hospital together.

So I book my ticket, take care of the kids and get a dog sitter. I wake up at 3am to get on the flight on 7:45am to arrive in San Antonio around 1pm. So as soon as I land I call Reese and tell her I'm there. She told me she was going to be there in two hours and that she would have Gabby call or text me and if she ran into traffic Gabby could jus meet up with me and take me to the hospital. So I got my bags and I waited... no call from Gabby... and I waited... no call from Reese.. 2 hours go by and I hadn't heard from anyone. I called Reese's home phone... no answer... I call her cell, it was off... so I continued to wait...

and wait...

...and wait!

Four hours went by and I was panicked hoping that Tasha didn't get worse and thats why no one has called me. So I started trying to figure out what my options were... So I thought I'll find the hospital, find her room and call a cab and jus go up there and hope for the best.
So I call the North East Methodist hospital from one of the courtesy phones and ask for NaTasha Robinson's room... the operator tells me.. no Natasha there... no one by the name Robinson under 70 y/o either. The operator suggests for me to call North East Baptist hospital... maybe it was a mix up... so I call there... No NaTasha Robinson... so I call hospital, after hospital, after hospital ... NO NATASHA ROBINSON!

I called EMS to see if I could get any information on accidents that someone needed transport that day... no accidents matching the description... so there I was... stuck in the airport, with no information about where Tasha is and I was very very tired... so I tried the last resort... MYSPACE

So I send a message to Priscilla, Reese and the supposedly crazy ex girlfriend Des pleading that someone could give me info so i can just find Tasha and make sure she's still alive...

A hour later Des calls me... I plead with her to give me any info she has so I can find Tasha at the hospital thinking that she didn't like me but I didnt care I just wanted to find Tasha with any information that Des "the crazy ex-girlfriend" could give me... soooooo yea.... here is where the Punk'd part you've all be waiting for comes in..
DES HAD NEVER MET TASHA!!!
She said that every time she tried to meet with her something always happened... and she even told me that Tasha had a seizure one of the times they were supposed to meet... I spent the next hour talking to Des about all the lies and mismatched information that "Tasha" has told us both.

..after my heart started beating again and my face stopped burning from crying I started putting my plan together. I booked the earliest flight back to CA and tried to stay calm...unfortunately there was no flights leaving back to Cali until early the next morning... to afarid to go to a hotel alone (very bad life changing experience once) I was faced with staying in the airport over night...

I sat in the airport seat that had gotten very uncomfortable for sitting there off and on for now 10 hours. 20 mins later my iPhone rings and it was Des... and she offered to pick me up ... I love her now lol She picked me up from the airport with her roommate, we stopped at McDonald's and we back to their apartment. We sat there over our 10 piece McNuggets trying to find the humor in the last 12 hours... at that point I was just waiting for the camera crew to come out and everyone laughing and pointing at me... I knew I had been Punk'd and jus wanted to laugh at myself and accept it...

But wait! it gets better...

So as we sat there after an hour or so trying to cheer each other up, my phone rings with a Blocked number... I knew it was going to be some bullshit but I answered anyway... and not to my surprise it was "Traci" and before I knew it I was screaming at her... she calmly says "Oh, you don't know?" and then she starts crying!!! .. ... and goes on to explain that "Tasha" didn't make it. That "Tasha" passed away... WTF! As if feeling like a complete asshole for falling for the whole game but you want to add insult to injury and call in DEAD! Bitch, are you for real?!!! I tried to remain as calm as possible without screaming at the top of my lungs at this chick as she told me while "Tasha" was in surgery they couldn't stop the bleeding from her lungs (from the accident) and she passed away at 1:47pm... okay look... who the FUCK calls someone and tells them that their friend is dead AND knows the exact time?! ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS BITCH?! OMG!! I was a fool for a moment but not for that fucking long! So needless to say I was beyond pissed and before I could start cussing "Traci" or whoever was on my phone the call dropped... conveniently...

... I have faced the fact that I've been Punk'd... bamboozled... hornswoggled... hoodwinked...

But... those that know me... know I couldn't just let it go like that... of course not...

I have since found out that the pictures where stolen from a 21 y/o stud in ATL named Melissia aka Lissa ... and she is too cute btw... anyway... the picture used for "Traci" was a random friend on her Lissa's downelink page!! ... and "Gabby" was actually a ex-girlfriend of Lissa's but "Gabby" wasn't her name...

...still have no idea if Amaya is "Tasha's" daughter... I do remember Amaya calling her mommy all the time but more likely than not the pictures of Amaya aren't real either...

That jus leaves Pricilla and Reese...

I have no idea if Pricilla is real or not but of course at this point I'm pretty sure she isn't... and the pictures where jus stolen from someone random too...

Reese... she is real... and she may be the one behind all this unnecessary bullshit...

I had sent a email to "Tasha's" phone and I remember the email being reesee81@pm.sprint.com... I didn't think much of it but now... hmm... so "Tasha" told me her mother's name was Rosyln Minor and her cellphone (210-875-4978) was under her mother name.... So I searched the internet for info on Rosyln and found that Maurisha is her daughter. Reese is short for Maurisha... and when I called Reese's house phone she states that you reached the home of "Maurisha, Nicole,..." then I did a reverse look up on Reese's house phone number and it came up Maurisha Minor in Phoenix, AZ... then... I was able to trace one of the emails "Tasha" had sent me a while back and got an IP address (70.190.134.191)... I did trace and came up with Phoenix, AZ... so with that information I traced it to Maurisha may have another last name... Martin and I was able to find out that her home service is by Cox Communication... its AMAZING what you can find out on the Internet... hmm.. I wonder what I'm going to do with all this information once I get over the shock of being Punk'd... hmmm....

...smh

...from now on.. I need Proof pictures before I even give my AIM out...smh... maybe even pictures with random flavors of Skittle bags...

waves Hater!

2008-12-08T17:52:00.000-08:00

Hi, Hater!

... Yes you...

Of course I'm talking to you!

I just wanted to take time out of my busy day and give you a shot out. You know... it used to frustrate me how you have to criticize everything that I do, always have my name in your mouth and your always concerned with what I'm doing and who I'm with... But I realized, you make me who I am... If I didn't have haters where would I be?! Without you, who would keep me popular? Who would inspire to go to the gym and keep this 36DD-24-42 body... who would inspire me to always step out the house looking fly, who would I laugh and point at for my own amusement and most importantly, who would I inspire to stay better than?! I mean, I WAS born better than you but what can I say, you keep me on my toes. So, to you Hater, I thank you! I wish I had more like you... I'm working on it though... and please, by all means keep the hate coming... it does help make me a better ME and well.. so much better than you *smile*

"Haters, if you don't have anyone to hate, feel free to hate on me" - Katt Williams

"Hate on me" - Jill Scott

Hush!

2008-12-08T17:31:00.000-08:00

I guess she didn't like the song I was singing...

"She wants to move" - N.E.R.D.

Real Sex

2008-12-06T12:42:00.000-08:00

... since there is no such thing as real .:lesbian porn:. ...

..you really just have to appreciate scenes like this...

"She Hate Me"

❤ I'm so inspired ❤

iStalk

2008-12-04T19:29:00.000-08:00

Do you ever wonder where your friends are when they don't answer a call or text messages? Or what your girlfriend is REALLY doing when she says she's at work?

Wonder no more!!

Now you can stalk your friends with your iPhone, iPod or Blackberry!

All you need is their phone number and you can find out where and what your friends are doing at anytime from anywhere!

Get the exact location WITH cross streets!

View a map that gives you the exact mileage they are away from you!

Leave them a nice message letting them know you know exactly what they are doing!

... don't worry lol if you want you can hide your location if you really want to.. but wheres the fun it that lol

"Every Little Step I Take" - Bobby Brown

Insomnia

2008-12-04T19:08:00.000-08:00

¤ And Ambien CR is starting not to work...

Listed

2008-12-01T10:47:00.000-08:00

tis the season to start listing...

Erika Pendant
Adorable rhodium-plated robot pendant in Aurora Borealis, Blue Zircon, Lime, Carribean Blue Opal, Padparadscha and clear crystal, set in the Pointiage technique. The robot’s head, arms and legs are moveable.
$220.00
www.swarovski.com/

Noel Heel - Green
Brand: L.A.M.B.
Embrace mod and tribal trends this season with LAMB’s sexy gladiator sandal, Noel. This heel shows of bold geometric designs on the upper in mustard yellow patent leather, forest green suede, all accented with black and detailed with zig-zagged stitching that projects a tribal vibe. Finished with a zipper at the heel, LAMB’s logo on the zipper pull, and a 4 ½ inch stacked stiletto heel, Noel will have everyone going wild!
SKU: ZLAM066-6
$299.00
http://www.heels.com

Graphics Alive (Paperback)
by Victionary (Editor)
Ever imagine you're living in a world of graphic art and illustrations? This book takes you through a revelation where you'll discover the omnipresent power of graphics alive around us in our daily items like fashion, furniture, toys, household products and even wall papers, etc. From head to toe, from big to small, the survey comprises of study of top international brands to unique projects by up-and-coming designers.
$39.95
http://www.amazon.com

MacBook, 13-inch, Aluminum
Part Number: MB467LL/A
2.4GHz Intel Core 2 Duo
2GB 1066MHz DDR3 SDRAM - 2x1GB
250GB Serial ATA Drive @ 5400 rpm
SuperDrive 8x (DVD±R DL/DVD±RW/CD-RW)
Backlit Keyboard (English) / User's Guide
Accessory kit
$1,599.00
http://www.Apple.com

NeverMind MacBook Cover - GelaSkins
Removable art prints designed to fit the 13 " MacBook
3M Technology for easy, repositionable application, and clean removal with no residue
Durable scratch protection and customization for your laptop computer
The actual GelaSkin dimensions are: 12.4 x 8.5 " (315 x 217mm)
$29.95
http://www.Gelaskins.com

Cinnamon Roll Charm
Hand painted thick fluffy cinnimon roll dripping with sugary goodness! Smells so yummy!
Made to order!
Scent: Cinnamon roll.
$23.00
http://pancakemeow.com

Ed Hardy Jeans Carp
Size: 29
$150.00
Macy's

Tui Recipe for Gorgeous Hair
Tropical goodness, sweet smells and flower power blended together to leave you with happy, healthy hair. Gorgeous, darling!
Contents:
Tui Herbal Shampoo 8 oz.
Tui Hair Smoothie 8 oz.
Tui Leave-in Conditioner 8 oz.
Wooden Comb
$43.00
http://www.carolsdaughter.com

Adidas Silverstreak Low Limited Edition
Size: 9
$79.00
Urban Outfitters

Hello Kitty Diamonique Sterling Fantabulous Pave Pendant
Cat fancy. Hello Kitty(R) proves she's all grown up in this stunning pendant, set with round, pave Diamonique(R) simulated diamonds across her face. Pink Diamonique simulated diamonds frame the pretty kitty, while Diamonique simulated rubies and 14K rose gold plating decorate her bow. From Hello Kitty for Diamonique Jewelry.
* Includes pendant and adjustable chain
* Sterling silver, 14K yellow and rose gold plating
* Total Diamonique weights are approximate: Simulated colored diamond 1.80 carats; Simulated diamond 50 points
* 14K yellow gold-plated nose
* Black enamel stone eyes
* Finished under-gallery on back
* Approximate measurements: Pendant 1-3/8"L x 1"W; Chain 16"L to 18"L
$143.50
http://www.qvc.com

TI
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..A Diva can dream... can't I...

"Diva" - Beyonce

Sound of Tears

2008-11-30T11:20:00.000-08:00

"Touch if u will my stomach
Feel how it trembles inside
You've got the butterflies all tied up
Dont make me chase u
Even doves have pride"

"When Doves Cry" - Prince

Never IN Love

2008-11-24T09:16:00.000-08:00

Talking to my girl about being IN LOVE and having LOVE for someone and got me thinking... about what exactly is it? Why do we separate the meanings of the two?

Some people say, "I LOVE her but I wasn't IN LOVE with her.." .. okay so I know I'm not the only one who has heard this or even said this themselves... so umm.. what does that mean exactly??

Definition of "In Love" {used as a idioms} - infused with or feeling deep affection or passion; feeling deep affection or passion for (a person, idea, occupation, etc.); enamored of

Definition of "Love" {used as a verb w/ a subject} - to have a profoundly tender, passionate affection for (another person)

So.. umm..

If you LOVE someone you have a profoundly passionate affection for that person ... if you are IN LOVE with someone you feel a deep passionate affection for that person ..

So the only difference is profound or deep affection????

So me being the NERD that I am took a step further and looked up exactly what profound and deep mean..

Profound {adj} - showing intellectual penetration or emotional depth

Deep (adj) - relatively deep or strong

So to me... and correct me if I'm wrong... I'd rather have someone LOVE me with intellectual penetration and emotional depth ... then someone IN LOVE with me relatively deep... .. right???

Did I lose anyone? ... yea.. I know... LOL

In other words... we have been saying it completely WRONG

I'm now changing the saying to "I was IN LOVE with her but I didn't LOVE her.." ..LOL..

"What is Love?" - Vivian Green

Shihan

2008-11-24T09:00:00.000-08:00

..I want a..

❤ Love type Love ❤

... remember to change your cellphone calling plan..

White Girl

2008-11-22T21:21:00.001-08:00

***The Original HOT girls of iPHONE***

OH! I LOVE EM!!!

In our line of work there are very few woman probably 1 to every 20 ::estimation:: so we learn how to stick together. We have all had our problems throughout the years but ...

I LOVE MY WHITE GIRLS!!! {LMAO}

Mental note: Never turn around when the person with the camera calls your name {lol}

...umm.. no comment...

Heather and Shelley

...what can I say... It was white and on her chest... she had to lick it.. its a rule {lol}

Beth and Shelley

My Ride or Die Beth

Heather the "MILF"!!

Shelley Shelley!!

My Favorite Gurls + 2 STRONG Tokyo Teas = Shaking it to "Get Low" in the parking lot ..{smh @ me}

Beth: Yea... umm.. she WILL be dropping on some gay bois at Badlands. BELIEVE IT!! ..... ... It's time to take A.R. home...

p.s.... Heather I know your not "White" but its was easier... plus the song goes better

"White Girl" - E40

Se7en

2008-11-19T21:18:00.000-08:00

NoE: "I own up to 2 sins... one on each wrist PRIDE and LUST"
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.. I had a very interesting conversation with a friend yesterday... just siting around talking about random things (as friends do) and we started talking about knowing yourself and knowing what you really want...

As you can see... PRIDE and LUST are her "deadly sins"... hmm...

I think ...

.. I know

.. if I had to admit what sins I indulge in the most... it would be PRIDE (Vanity) and LUST.. You should know yourself, right? I can list off several things that I do well... Why not know your weakness?

..LUST..
..GLUTTONY..
..ENVY..
..GREED..
..PRIDE..
..WRATH..
..SLOTH..

PRIDE .. is considered the original and most serious of the seven deadly sins .. (lucky me) .. and indeed the ultimate source from which the others arise. ... desire to be more important or attractive than others (check!) ... excessive love of self (check!) ... Vanity and narcissism are prime examples of this sin. (...and..check!)

LUST.. is pretty simple... usually thought of as involving obsessive or excessive thoughts or desires of a sexual nature. (check.. duh! ... )

I admit I love myself... I admit I can't pass reflections without making sure my hair is in place and my clothes look good... Love thyself, right? I do have the desire to be more important than others... who doesn't... what business person, athlete, model, college student... doesn't want to me at the top of their class... the best in there field? If thats vanity, I'll take that...

And lust... well thats obvious... I have excessive thoughts about beautiful women all the time... who doesn't have desires of a sexual nature.. I'm human right...

.."they" call these "deadly sins" but in reality (to me) they are just human weaknesses... human characteristics even.. that can be indulged without them being extreme.. I except PRIDE and LUST as my human "sins" that I will carry with me, keeping in check ... keeping under quiet surveillance... they are a part of me... and acceptance is necessary to knowing yourself...

What's your Se7en?

Before Nas

2008-11-18T11:16:00.000-08:00

Before...

"Like Isis, she got you heartbroke and felt lifeless
Grow up girl instead you want revenge so now you act the nicest
to who'sever gettin down and trifless
To get his mind all you do is give him somethin priceless..."
- "Black Girl Lost" - Nas

There was...

KlymaXxX

2008-11-17T12:08:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KLYMAXXX!!

You have been one of my best friends for over 7 years! We have had our ups and downs, laughs and cries...

Shared secrets, fears, dreams... even shared the same..umm... well you know {LOL}...
No one could ever replace you're crazy ass, ever!
I love you girl!!!

Happy Birthday - Stevie Wonder

Golden Arches???

2008-11-16T13:14:00.000-08:00

Me: Y does everyone think about me when they see rainbows?
Xenie: because your skittle outfit is almost as well known as the golden arches..
Me: I love it.. LMAO!
..
hmm...

8 pounds of Skittles candy = $48.41
3 yards of fabric and thread = $27.02
Shoots w/ favorite photographer Falaah Shabazz = $691.00

Being the reason why people smile when they see a rainbow
... PRICELESS

Draw me

2008-11-16T12:26:00.000-08:00

J.L: Draw me something
Me: Like what?
J.L: Don't matter
Me: Okay I will
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A New Lady for my Mom

2008-11-16T11:36:00.000-08:00

...So I came back from trip and went to my moms house. She was in one of her redecorating modes. And let me mention her hobby of the year is Quilting... so anyway... she loves painting, sculptures, drawings, figurines, etc of women. Dancing women, naked women, faceless women playing cards, women holding babies, fat women is colorful gowns, African women with baskets on their heads, etc... .. Don't ask me why, its just her thing.. She calls them her "ladies." ... And don't get me wrong she finds them in places all over the world and all of them are extremely gorgeous... an my mom is as straight as I am gay but she collects "ladies"... its jus a little odd to me... *shrug* oh well ... its jus her thing...

so anyway.. I got of track... so I'm over there and she asked me if could I paint her a lady on a quilt she's making. She had already made the quilt, had the paint and brushes out and scratch paper for me to draw it first... smh... Now, mind you... if you know me, you know I haven't been able to do anything creative in about a month or so because of the insomnia, so my first reaction was to tell her NO! ... but she is my mom and I knowing her she already planned where she was going to put the painting and planned to move all the other stuff around it. So I took the paint brush and the black paint, took a deep breath and this is what I came up with....

Where did all the WORDS go?

2008-11-12T12:43:00.000-08:00

TWIMC,

getN 2 KNW dis XX is nt EZ. IRL Im vry shy and she duznt tlk or txt mch. I dk H2 IMPRS her. CGHOFM thO. I KC and txt FT2T. But TBH I TNK shes realy smrt an a QT . A lil yung ThO bt age ain't Ø bt a #, rt? Who am I kidN? She cUd B D8ING SUM1 or av a G/F. Or not b nterestD @ all But I try 2 T+. EVRT she TXT me IM on Cld9. Y?... I DK. I avent nown her vry lng bt she hs my noz opN. NEway TTYL

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"Many Moons" - Janelle Monae

Recipe

2008-11-10T21:54:00.000-08:00

Jai Lovehall: So why isn't there anyone special in your life?
Me: I'm still looking for her...
Jai Lovehall: What she made of?
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..hmm...

2 1/2 cup Sensuality
4 cups Intelligence
5 pitches Wit
2 teaspoons Humor
6 1/3 cups Loyalty
3 cups Honesty
2 teaspoons Goofiness
3 1/2 cups Communication
1 3/4 teaspoons Hip-Hop
1 pitch of Arrogance
2 teaspoons Talent
3 teaspoons Karma Sutra
2 2/3 cups Respect
2 cups Understanding

Appreciate and surround with warm trust and plenty of patience.
Don't expose to drama and keep other people fingers out the pot.
Apply space apart from time to time to keep fresh.

"Favorite things" - Andre 3000

Home Sweet Home

2008-11-10T20:11:00.000-08:00

Last night I went to my Mom's house... well I was kinda forced but it was cool...

She bought a gingerbread house kit and the night ended up kind of awesome. The kids had so much fun decorating it and they did it all by themselves. I enjoyed watching them get candy and icing everywhere. It was great...

Alter Ego

2008-11-08T13:10:00.000-08:00

I love Halloween...

...its the only day a year that it's Ok to take candy from strangers! ... its the only day a year that women can run around in the streets in bras, thongs and fishnets and its called a "costume"

... but best of all.. its when my alter ego shows her face without scorn...

with sharp veneer fangs, slick boned leather corset, flirty burlesques skirt, 5 inch heels and leather collar for a master's leash..

I own the night.. I am Vampian..

"We Own The Night" A.E. featuring BedRock

A Perfect World

2008-11-07T11:50:00.000-08:00

OkayOkayOkayOkay... Can you tell I'm excited?! Cause I am!!!!! The Sims 3 is coming out soon! Woooowhooo!!! I have been waiting a whole year for this!

So I'm giving warning now, for those that know me well, watch out for the release date... because you know I'm not leaving the house for like 5 to 7 days right?

Customize Everything!

New Game Play

Enhanced "Create A Sim" customization

Seamless neighborhoods

Oshun

2008-11-06T16:10:00.000-08:00

I've made your sacrifices.
Experienced your intimacy.
I am much like you.
I dawn your white dress.
The beauty reflects back at me.
But you don't bless me with your wealth.
I love ones like us.
Skin soft as the grace of the souls that lived before me.
H.E.R
Our strength alike.
We love too, Oshun.

Daydream

2008-11-06T10:02:00.000-08:00

Bottom Lip quivers above me.
Fingers wrapped around moist locks.
Sweat swims in our bellybutton.
Thighs wrap around begins to thunder.
It rains.
I see her face in my heart beat.
Or maybe it was only in my daydream.

Sex Fiend

2008-11-05T22:36:00.000-08:00

Watch more Purple Rain videos on AOL Video

★ my favorite

.. come back Nikki .. come back ...

43 years and a step backward

2008-11-05T21:04:00.000-08:00

"Almighty God created the races white, black, yellow, and red, and he placed them on separate continents. And but for the interference with his arrangement there would be no cause for such marriages. The fact that he separated the races shows that he did not intend for the races to mix." - Virginia trial court Judge Leon Bazile, 1965

1965.. my mother was 4 years old ... yet Richard and Mildred Loving {an interracial couple} were still fighting to marry legally..

"By bowing down to homosexual activists and the rebel city of San Francisco, the California Supreme Court has exchanged the rule of law for the rule of unbridled power to destroy all that is good and sacred. However, the terrible example of homosexual “weddings” should be short-lived. This extremely bad ruling will certainly spur Californians to vote in November to overrule the judges and protect marriage licenses for a man and a woman in the California Constitution." - Veteran California pro-family leader Randy Thomasson, 2008

2008.. my daughter is 4 years old.. yet hundreds of thousands of same-sex couples are still fighting to marry legally...

Sadly today... Prop 8 passed ...

.. I take it personal ..

.. millions of Californians believe that because I love a woman, I am not human enough to have the same rights are they do.. I am not human like them..

the cousins of hate.. discrimination.. fear.. confusion.. supremacy.. *won today*

{smh} .. we will go backwards from these point

{sigh} what's next?

Cause & Effect

2008-11-05T15:38:00.000-08:00

With the change that has come to our nation, there has been a change. within myself. I decided to share it. So here I go. Welcome... to my creative audacity..