"Touch if u will my stomach
Feel how it trembles inside
You've got the butterflies all tied up
Dont make me chase u
Even doves have pride"
"When Doves Cry" - Prince
20081130
Sound of Tears
"Touch if u will my stomach
Feel how it trembles inside
You've got the butterflies all tied up
Dont make me chase u
Even doves have pride"
"When Doves Cry" - Prince
20081124
Never IN Love
Talking to my girl about being IN LOVE and having LOVE for someone and got me thinking... about what exactly is it? Why do we separate the meanings of the two?
Some people say, "I LOVE her but I wasn't IN LOVE with her.." .. okay so I know I'm not the only one who has heard this or even said this themselves... so umm.. what does that mean exactly??
Definition of "In Love" {used as a idioms} - infused with or feeling deep affection or passion; feeling deep affection or passion for (a person, idea, occupation, etc.); enamored of
Definition of "Love" {used as a verb w/ a subject} - to have a profoundly tender, passionate affection for (another person)
So.. umm..
If you LOVE someone you have a profoundly passionate affection for that person ... if you are IN LOVE with someone you feel a deep passionate affection for that person ..
So the only difference is profound or deep affection????
So me being the NERD that I am took a step further and looked up exactly what profound and deep mean..
Profound {adj} - showing intellectual penetration or emotional depth
Deep (adj) - relatively deep or strong
So to me... and correct me if I'm wrong... I'd rather have someone LOVE me with intellectual penetration and emotional depth ... then someone IN LOVE with me relatively deep... .. right???
Did I lose anyone? ... yea.. I know... LOL
In other words... we have been saying it completely WRONG
I'm now changing the saying to "I was IN LOVE with her but I didn't LOVE her.." ..LOL..
"What is Love?" - Vivian Green
Some people say, "I LOVE her but I wasn't IN LOVE with her.." .. okay so I know I'm not the only one who has heard this or even said this themselves... so umm.. what does that mean exactly??
Definition of "In Love" {used as a idioms} - infused with or feeling deep affection or passion; feeling deep affection or passion for (a person, idea, occupation, etc.); enamored of
Definition of "Love" {used as a verb w/ a subject} - to have a profoundly tender, passionate affection for (another person)
So.. umm..
If you LOVE someone you have a profoundly passionate affection for that person ... if you are IN LOVE with someone you feel a deep passionate affection for that person ..
So the only difference is profound or deep affection????
So me being the NERD that I am took a step further and looked up exactly what profound and deep mean..
Profound {adj} - showing intellectual penetration or emotional depth
Deep (adj) - relatively deep or strong
So to me... and correct me if I'm wrong... I'd rather have someone LOVE me with intellectual penetration and emotional depth ... then someone IN LOVE with me relatively deep... .. right???
Did I lose anyone? ... yea.. I know... LOL
In other words... we have been saying it completely WRONG
I'm now changing the saying to "I was IN LOVE with her but I didn't LOVE her.." ..LOL..
"What is Love?" - Vivian Green
20081122
White Girl
***The Original HOT girls of iPHONE***
OH! I LOVE EM!!!
In our line of work there are very few woman probably 1 to every 20 ::estimation:: so we learn how to stick together. We have all had our problems throughout the years but ...
I LOVE MY WHITE GIRLS!!! {LMAO}
Mental note: Never turn around when the person with the camera calls your name {lol}
...umm.. no comment...
Heather and Shelley
...what can I say... It was white and on her chest... she had to lick it.. its a rule {lol}
Beth and Shelley
My Ride or Die Beth
Heather the "MILF"!!
Shelley Shelley!!
My Favorite Gurls + 2 STRONG Tokyo Teas = Shaking it to "Get Low" in the parking lot ..{smh @ me}
Beth: Yea... umm.. she WILL be dropping on some gay bois at Badlands. BELIEVE IT!! ..... ... It's time to take A.R. home...
p.s.... Heather I know your not "White" but its was easier... plus the song goes better
OH! I LOVE EM!!!
In our line of work there are very few woman probably 1 to every 20 ::estimation:: so we learn how to stick together. We have all had our problems throughout the years but ...
I LOVE MY WHITE GIRLS!!! {LMAO}
Mental note: Never turn around when the person with the camera calls your name {lol}
...umm.. no comment...
Heather and Shelley
...what can I say... It was white and on her chest... she had to lick it.. its a rule {lol}
Beth and Shelley
My Ride or Die Beth
Heather the "MILF"!!
Shelley Shelley!!
My Favorite Gurls + 2 STRONG Tokyo Teas = Shaking it to "Get Low" in the parking lot ..{smh @ me}
Beth: Yea... umm.. she WILL be dropping on some gay bois at Badlands. BELIEVE IT!! ..... ... It's time to take A.R. home...
p.s.... Heather I know your not "White" but its was easier... plus the song goes better
"White Girl" - E40
20081119
Se7en
NoE: "I own up to 2 sins... one on each wrist PRIDE and LUST"
..
.. I had a very interesting conversation with a friend yesterday... just siting around talking about random things (as friends do) and we started talking about knowing yourself and knowing what you really want...
As you can see... PRIDE and LUST are her "deadly sins"... hmm...
I think ...
.. I know
.. if I had to admit what sins I indulge in the most... it would be PRIDE (Vanity) and LUST.. You should know yourself, right? I can list off several things that I do well... Why not know your weakness?
..LUST..
..GLUTTONY..
..ENVY..
..GREED..
..PRIDE..
..WRATH..
..SLOTH..
PRIDE .. is considered the original and most serious of the seven deadly sins .. (lucky me) .. and indeed the ultimate source from which the others arise. ... desire to be more important or attractive than others (check!) ... excessive love of self (check!) ... Vanity and narcissism are prime examples of this sin. (...and..check!)
LUST.. is pretty simple... usually thought of as involving obsessive or excessive thoughts or desires of a sexual nature. (check.. duh! ... )
I admit I love myself... I admit I can't pass reflections without making sure my hair is in place and my clothes look good... Love thyself, right? I do have the desire to be more important than others... who doesn't... what business person, athlete, model, college student... doesn't want to me at the top of their class... the best in there field? If thats vanity, I'll take that...
And lust... well thats obvious... I have excessive thoughts about beautiful women all the time... who doesn't have desires of a sexual nature.. I'm human right...
.."they" call these "deadly sins" but in reality (to me) they are just human weaknesses... human characteristics even.. that can be indulged without them being extreme.. I except PRIDE and LUST as my human "sins" that I will carry with me, keeping in check ... keeping under quiet surveillance... they are a part of me... and acceptance is necessary to knowing yourself...
What's your Se7en?
..
.. I had a very interesting conversation with a friend yesterday... just siting around talking about random things (as friends do) and we started talking about knowing yourself and knowing what you really want...
As you can see... PRIDE and LUST are her "deadly sins"... hmm...
I think ...
.. I know
.. if I had to admit what sins I indulge in the most... it would be PRIDE (Vanity) and LUST.. You should know yourself, right? I can list off several things that I do well... Why not know your weakness?
..LUST..
..GLUTTONY..
..ENVY..
..GREED..
..PRIDE..
..WRATH..
..SLOTH..
PRIDE .. is considered the original and most serious of the seven deadly sins .. (lucky me) .. and indeed the ultimate source from which the others arise. ... desire to be more important or attractive than others (check!) ... excessive love of self (check!) ... Vanity and narcissism are prime examples of this sin. (...and..check!)
LUST.. is pretty simple... usually thought of as involving obsessive or excessive thoughts or desires of a sexual nature. (check.. duh! ... )
I admit I love myself... I admit I can't pass reflections without making sure my hair is in place and my clothes look good... Love thyself, right? I do have the desire to be more important than others... who doesn't... what business person, athlete, model, college student... doesn't want to me at the top of their class... the best in there field? If thats vanity, I'll take that...
And lust... well thats obvious... I have excessive thoughts about beautiful women all the time... who doesn't have desires of a sexual nature.. I'm human right...
.."they" call these "deadly sins" but in reality (to me) they are just human weaknesses... human characteristics even.. that can be indulged without them being extreme.. I except PRIDE and LUST as my human "sins" that I will carry with me, keeping in check ... keeping under quiet surveillance... they are a part of me... and acceptance is necessary to knowing yourself...
What's your Se7en?
20081118
Before Nas
Before...
"Like Isis, she got you heartbroke and felt lifeless
Grow up girl instead you want revenge so now you act the nicest
to who'sever gettin down and trifless
To get his mind all you do is give him somethin priceless..."
- "Black Girl Lost" - Nas
"Like Isis, she got you heartbroke and felt lifeless
Grow up girl instead you want revenge so now you act the nicest
to who'sever gettin down and trifless
To get his mind all you do is give him somethin priceless..."
- "Black Girl Lost" - Nas
There was...
20081117
KlymaXxX
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KLYMAXXX!!
You have been one of my best friends for over 7 years! We have had our ups and downs, laughs and cries...
Shared secrets, fears, dreams... even shared the same..umm... well you know {LOL}...
No one could ever replace you're crazy ass, ever!
I love you girl!!!
20081116
Golden Arches???
Me: Y does everyone think about me when they see rainbows?
Xenie: because your skittle outfit is almost as well known as the golden arches..
Me: I love it.. LMAO!
..
hmm...
8 pounds of Skittles candy = $48.41
3 yards of fabric and thread = $27.02
Shoots w/ favorite photographer Falaah Shabazz = $691.00
Being the reason why people smile when they see a rainbow
... PRICELESS
Xenie: because your skittle outfit is almost as well known as the golden arches..
Me: I love it.. LMAO!
..
hmm...
8 pounds of Skittles candy = $48.41
3 yards of fabric and thread = $27.02
Shoots w/ favorite photographer Falaah Shabazz = $691.00
Being the reason why people smile when they see a rainbow
... PRICELESS
A New Lady for my Mom
...So I came back from trip and went to my moms house. She was in one of her redecorating modes. And let me mention her hobby of the year is Quilting... so anyway... she loves painting, sculptures, drawings, figurines, etc of women. Dancing women, naked women, faceless women playing cards, women holding babies, fat women is colorful gowns, African women with baskets on their heads, etc... .. Don't ask me why, its just her thing.. She calls them her "ladies." ... And don't get me wrong she finds them in places all over the world and all of them are extremely gorgeous... an my mom is as straight as I am gay but she collects "ladies"... its jus a little odd to me... *shrug* oh well ... its jus her thing...
so anyway.. I got of track... so I'm over there and she asked me if could I paint her a lady on a quilt she's making. She had already made the quilt, had the paint and brushes out and scratch paper for me to draw it first... smh... Now, mind you... if you know me, you know I haven't been able to do anything creative in about a month or so because of the insomnia, so my first reaction was to tell her NO! ... but she is my mom and I knowing her she already planned where she was going to put the painting and planned to move all the other stuff around it. So I took the paint brush and the black paint, took a deep breath and this is what I came up with....
so anyway.. I got of track... so I'm over there and she asked me if could I paint her a lady on a quilt she's making. She had already made the quilt, had the paint and brushes out and scratch paper for me to draw it first... smh... Now, mind you... if you know me, you know I haven't been able to do anything creative in about a month or so because of the insomnia, so my first reaction was to tell her NO! ... but she is my mom and I knowing her she already planned where she was going to put the painting and planned to move all the other stuff around it. So I took the paint brush and the black paint, took a deep breath and this is what I came up with....
20081112
Where did all the WORDS go?
TWIMC,
getN 2 KNW dis XX is nt EZ. IRL Im vry shy and she duznt tlk or txt mch. I dk H2 IMPRS her. CGHOFM thO. I KC and txt FT2T. But TBH I TNK shes realy smrt an a QT . A lil yung ThO bt age ain't Ø bt a #, rt? Who am I kidN? She cUd B D8ING SUM1 or av a G/F. Or not b nterestD @ all But I try 2 T+. EVRT she TXT me IM on Cld9. Y?... I DK. I avent nown her vry lng bt she hs my noz opN. NEway TTYL
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"Many Moons" - Janelle Monae
getN 2 KNW dis XX is nt EZ. IRL Im vry shy and she duznt tlk or txt mch. I dk H2 IMPRS her. CGHOFM thO. I KC and txt FT2T. But TBH I TNK shes realy smrt an a QT . A lil yung ThO bt age ain't Ø bt a #, rt? Who am I kidN? She cUd B D8ING SUM1 or av a G/F. Or not b nterestD @ all But I try 2 T+. EVRT she TXT me IM on Cld9. Y?... I DK. I avent nown her vry lng bt she hs my noz opN. NEway TTYL
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"Many Moons" - Janelle Monae
20081110
Recipe
Jai Lovehall: So why isn't there anyone special in your life?
Me: I'm still looking for her...
Jai Lovehall: What she made of?
..
..hmm...
Me: I'm still looking for her...
Jai Lovehall: What she made of?
..
..hmm...
- 2 1/2 cup Sensuality
- 4 cups Intelligence
- 5 pitches Wit
- 2 teaspoons Humor
- 6 1/3 cups Loyalty
- 3 cups Honesty
- 2 teaspoons Goofiness
- 3 1/2 cups Communication
- 1 3/4 teaspoons Hip-Hop
- 1 pitch of Arrogance
- 2 teaspoons Talent
- 3 teaspoons Karma Sutra
- 2 2/3 cups Respect
- 2 cups Understanding
Appreciate and surround with warm trust and plenty of patience.
Don't expose to drama and keep other people fingers out the pot.
Apply space apart from time to time to keep fresh.
"Favorite things" - Andre 3000
Don't expose to drama and keep other people fingers out the pot.
Apply space apart from time to time to keep fresh.
"Favorite things" - Andre 3000
Home Sweet Home
Last night I went to my Mom's house... well I was kinda forced but it was cool...
She bought a gingerbread house kit and the night ended up kind of awesome. The kids had so much fun decorating it and they did it all by themselves. I enjoyed watching them get candy and icing everywhere. It was great...
She bought a gingerbread house kit and the night ended up kind of awesome. The kids had so much fun decorating it and they did it all by themselves. I enjoyed watching them get candy and icing everywhere. It was great...
20081108
Alter Ego
I love Halloween...
...its the only day a year that it's Ok to take candy from strangers! ... its the only day a year that women can run around in the streets in bras, thongs and fishnets and its called a "costume"
... but best of all.. its when my alter ego shows her face without scorn...
with sharp veneer fangs, slick boned leather corset, flirty burlesques skirt, 5 inch heels and leather collar for a master's leash..
I own the night.. I am Vampian..
"We Own The Night" A.E. featuring BedRock
...its the only day a year that it's Ok to take candy from strangers! ... its the only day a year that women can run around in the streets in bras, thongs and fishnets and its called a "costume"
... but best of all.. its when my alter ego shows her face without scorn...
with sharp veneer fangs, slick boned leather corset, flirty burlesques skirt, 5 inch heels and leather collar for a master's leash..
I own the night.. I am Vampian..
"We Own The Night" A.E. featuring BedRock
20081107
A Perfect World
OkayOkayOkayOkay... Can you tell I'm excited?! Cause I am!!!!! The Sims 3 is coming out soon! Woooowhooo!!! I have been waiting a whole year for this!
So I'm giving warning now, for those that know me well, watch out for the release date... because you know I'm not leaving the house for like 5 to 7 days right?
Customize Everything!
New Game Play
Enhanced "Create A Sim" customization
Seamless neighborhoods
So I'm giving warning now, for those that know me well, watch out for the release date... because you know I'm not leaving the house for like 5 to 7 days right?
Customize Everything!
New Game Play
Enhanced "Create A Sim" customization
Seamless neighborhoods
20081106
Oshun
I've made your sacrifices.
Experienced your intimacy.
I am much like you.
I dawn your white dress.
The beauty reflects back at me.
But you don't bless me with your wealth.
I love ones like us.
Skin soft as the grace of the souls that lived before me.
H.E.R
Our strength alike.
We love too, Oshun.
Experienced your intimacy.
I am much like you.
I dawn your white dress.
The beauty reflects back at me.
But you don't bless me with your wealth.
I love ones like us.
Skin soft as the grace of the souls that lived before me.
H.E.R
Our strength alike.
We love too, Oshun.
Daydream
Bottom Lip quivers above me.
Fingers wrapped around moist locks.
Sweat swims in our bellybutton.
Thighs wrap around begins to thunder.
It rains.
I see her face in my heart beat.
Or maybe it was only in my daydream.
Fingers wrapped around moist locks.
Sweat swims in our bellybutton.
Thighs wrap around begins to thunder.
It rains.
I see her face in my heart beat.
Or maybe it was only in my daydream.
20081105
43 years and a step backward
"Almighty God created the races white, black, yellow, and red, and he placed them on separate continents. And but for the interference with his arrangement there would be no cause for such marriages. The fact that he separated the races shows that he did not intend for the races to mix." - Virginia trial court Judge Leon Bazile, 1965
1965.. my mother was 4 years old ... yet Richard and Mildred Loving {an interracial couple} were still fighting to marry legally..
"By bowing down to homosexual activists and the rebel city of San Francisco, the California Supreme Court has exchanged the rule of law for the rule of unbridled power to destroy all that is good and sacred. However, the terrible example of homosexual “weddings” should be short-lived. This extremely bad ruling will certainly spur Californians to vote in November to overrule the judges and protect marriage licenses for a man and a woman in the California Constitution." - Veteran California pro-family leader Randy Thomasson, 2008
2008.. my daughter is 4 years old.. yet hundreds of thousands of same-sex couples are still fighting to marry legally...
Sadly today... Prop 8 passed ...
.. I take it personal ..
.. millions of Californians believe that because I love a woman, I am not human enough to have the same rights are they do.. I am not human like them..
the cousins of hate.. discrimination.. fear.. confusion.. supremacy.. *won today*
{smh} .. we will go backwards from these point
{sigh} what's next?
1965.. my mother was 4 years old ... yet Richard and Mildred Loving {an interracial couple} were still fighting to marry legally..
"By bowing down to homosexual activists and the rebel city of San Francisco, the California Supreme Court has exchanged the rule of law for the rule of unbridled power to destroy all that is good and sacred. However, the terrible example of homosexual “weddings” should be short-lived. This extremely bad ruling will certainly spur Californians to vote in November to overrule the judges and protect marriage licenses for a man and a woman in the California Constitution." - Veteran California pro-family leader Randy Thomasson, 2008
2008.. my daughter is 4 years old.. yet hundreds of thousands of same-sex couples are still fighting to marry legally...
Sadly today... Prop 8 passed ...
.. I take it personal ..
.. millions of Californians believe that because I love a woman, I am not human enough to have the same rights are they do.. I am not human like them..
the cousins of hate.. discrimination.. fear.. confusion.. supremacy.. *won today*
{smh} .. we will go backwards from these point
{sigh} what's next?
Cause & Effect
With the change that has come to our nation, there has been a change. within myself. I decided to share it. So here I go. Welcome... to my creative audacity..
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