Damaged Fruit

"We are who we choose to be...I’m responsible for me" - Floetry

Choosing a partner is like shopping at the grocery for fruit. Everyone wants the perfectly ripe, pretty skinned pickin' with no bruises or soft spots and a very sweet inside.

Some of us spend a while looking over the fruit on display, picking it up... smelling it... looking for unwanted bruises until we find exactly what we think we want.

Some of us pick at random and hope for the best. I was one of those people that tried and balance the good with the bad. I may pick up a nice juicy peach thats ripe and looks soooo sweet but it may have a bruise or two.. but I figured if its that bad I'll eat around it and throw the bad part away. I figured I was getting more sweet juiciness than bruised and damaged so I still win... right???

With a person, you cant just eat around the bad part like you can a piece of fruit and throw it away... it will never go away. When you meet someone that has been damaged by the past regardless of if its relationships, childhood, trama, etc. it will ALWAYS be a part of that person.

I loved once... regardless of her faults or failures I loved her... but she was damaged.

I wanted so bad to be the things that had been missing in her life and show her everything that I was but she was damaged. I shared by life, love and family with her but she was damaged. No matter how far I thought we got, nothing mattered because she was so damaged. Damaged by family, lust, love & life... and honestly I cant blame all of this on her.. I did know what I was dealing with and I still tried to eat around the bruises and the soft spots but at the end I couldn't throw the rest away... once all the sweet juicy ripe flesh was gone all I was left with was the pieces no one wanted.. including her ... there was no fixing what was already damaged... and left with nothing more than that it started to slowly damage me... You know "they" say "One spoiled Apple spoils the bunch"..

I should have taking in all of her... the good and the bad but we both left some of the bad out... through lack of communication, acceptance and loyalty, we failed to do what I intended... take the good with the bad... and all we were left with in the end was damaged fruit....